Anxiety and panic attack story

Part one mum is hospital
Today i thought i would share my aniexty and panic attacks story well here i go on first experience was a day in 2013.
My mum was taken in operation so i was lefted with my few month old brother on my own , i had never been left with a baby before and i remember one day i was walk to bus stop with my baby brother i was really nervous and a little tired so i went on the bus parked my brother up and sat down and i remember standing up i felt my legs were like jelly so i sat back down and so i just focus on my little brother and make sure he was fine and after a while i started to relaxed when came to getting off bus i was fine again and in the hospital  my little brother needed this nappy change cause it went up his back , me and his godmother had take him to baby changing room only to find out i forgot his wipe and we had too use tissues and add a little water to clean and and that we had change his clothes and went back up to room to see my mum then we went home and i was fine rest of the day until later that night my dad message me to say my aunt cancer had gotten worse and i was upset she had been in my life since i was a baby and she soon will be going to better place .
While my mum was in hospitial deep down felt i was doing on my own and noone to help me . his own father was more interested in playing woth his car than to help look after his son anytime i ask his to help he said no to busy with car and after 2 days i was really tired cause i didn’t get must sleep so after my mum told him to take him so i could sleep and after we left hospital once again just mins of getting home he was going to leave his son with me after my mum told him to take him so i told him if he didnt take his son i would go my father’s then he will have too.

he took him but when he leave he was in a bad moody and bang the door closed and i cry myself to sleep cause i felt bad that i was tired and person that was to look after him care and protect didnt want him .
next day around 8 or half 8 in morning he showed up with my brother drop him off and basicaly ran out the door and i was once again left with my brother myself but i gave my brother and cuddle him gave him a bottle and back down . i remember telling him ” i am sorry that he has a father like that ” not like he understand . the last night of my mum in hospital still had force his to take his son and glad my mum would be home .
next day my mum was home and i did most of work since she still needed to rest but she did much she what she could will recovering

this was Part one aniexty story . Part 2 will be based going back to college next tuesday
bye

Summer shoes june 2017

some of the summers shoes i like

 

White Bird Embroidered Lace Up Trainers

 

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Size UK : 3 to 8 

Price: £27.99

Design is birds with flowers on them and they could go with most outfits

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White Bird Embroidered Lace Up Trainers

 

 

 

 

ASOS FLEETWOOD Flat Sandals

 

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Colour: Nude

Price: £20.00

Design is nude colour sandal and has diamonds on the heel. I personal can wait to buy these sandals

ASOS FLEETWOOD Flat Sandals

 

 

 

 

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June 2017 canvas bags

i have found a few lovely  canvas bags

 

I have found these canvas design bags all different design and all canvas bag from new look and price each £2.99 .i thought these bags would be good for the summer if you plan a trip out in this current nice weather.

here is a couple of them:

download (2)Pink Pug Print Canvas Bag

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

download (4)Black Metallic Unicorn Canvas Bag

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gold Bride Squad Print Canvas Bagdownload (3)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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My Tattoo’s Experience

My first tattoo was the heart tattoo

 

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I got my tattoo done on day after my 21st birthday .i decision to get the hear cause it was small and good one to get for my first time and took about 15 mins to get done. pain was 7 ot of 10 not to painfully . tattoo its self black out line and read and pink on left half on my tattoo.

 

My Second tattoo was two butterfly tattoos

 

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I got tattoo on 22nd birthday and i plan to get this is was thought about getting tattoo  since the first time i thought about tattoo. To me it means ” spread your wings and fly and be free “.pain was 7 out of 10 and lasted about half hour to a hour

 

 

 

My third tattoo is a rose

 

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My rose tattoo was done a few months ago and pain 9 out of 10. this was the painfully tattoo i have got so far and i do not intend to get any more on my fingers . i got this cause i love the design but i do need to go get a second touch up.

 

 

 

Advice

my main advice is to anyone planning to get tattoo before getting any that you think hard before getting it done

 

if you got any question then please ask away and i happy to ask around tattoo place and ask your question .

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June Favourite make up

These are my favourite make up products that i love to use

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Max Factor all day flawless 3in1 foundation

Shade :Light Ivory

Price: £12.99

Max Factor All Day Flawless 3in1 Foundation

 

 

 

 

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Barry M natural glow 2 palette

Price: £6.49

  Barry M natural glow 2 palette

 

 

Bourjois_Precision_Eyebrow_Pencil_4g_1493906751    Bourjois precision eyebrow pencil

Price : 4.99

Colour : Chatain

Bourjois Precision Eyebrow Pencil

 

 

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Sleek  make up matte me lip cream

Price : 4.99

colour : Velvet slipper

Sleek Makeup Matte Me Lip Cream